Honestly I have to say that I'm disappointed with where I am with God today. Yes I love Him with all my heart and soul, yes I've grown closer to Him and I've grown spiritually but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I could have grown closer to Him, I could have grown more spiritually and I could have done more for His Kingdom. Okay, so then I ask myself why didn't I???? Ha, and that's the question. I didn't grow more closely to Him, grow more spiritually, or do more for His Kingdom because........(drum roll), I didn't take the time to do so. I didn't have the commitment and discipline to do so because I've been enjoying my life and for the most part things have been going well in my life. It's sad but true that most of us seek God more when we are "going through". That's usually when we spend the most time in His word and in prayer and that leads us to do more of His work. I'm just being transparent and speaking the truth.
Most of you already know that I've had my share and then some of "rough times" so there's nothing wrong with accepting God's blessings. I've been in a season, I believe, of receiving his blessings, of God turning my sadness into gladness and that's all good but God doesn't want us to focus on the blessing and not the blesser. We live in a "what's in it for me" society so it's so easy to get caught up in that and forget that it's not about me, it's not about "my comfort". It truly is about God's plan and purpose being fulfilled through us. A few months after my last vacation I said I was coming back with a new committment and a new focus and unfortunately I lost sight of that so it's time to get back on track. I share this for two reasons, maybe somebody else needs to get back on track and secondly for those who know me intimately if you see me "off track" please remind me to get back on track or challenge me and help me to be accountable. We can all use help in being accountable so feel free to help me in that area.
Lord God forgive me for not giving you my all, for not being where I should be spiritually right now, for missing opportunities you place in front of me or for being more concerned about my happiness and comfort than taking care of your business, for not pushing myself to do more and having a heart like yours for the lost. Help me Lord to do things as you want them done and when you want them done. Help me Lord to seek you with all my heart, mind, body and soul. Thank you Lord for never giving up on me and for being the God of second, third, fourth....chances. Notice the scriptures below - they all require ACTION so I have to get busy!!!
Mark 12:30-31 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these.”
Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Proverbs 4:5 Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or turn away from them.