Okay so here's more transparency, I have never been a "housewife". I've always worked and made very good money. I've always been the one to make the most money in the household so to find myself suddenly in a place where I'm not bringing in any money, where I have to totally depend on my husband is a shocker for me. It's taking me some time to adjust. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love the fact that I'm not working and that I'm able to start my business. However, it's a challenge for me. My husband is an absolutely wonderful man but lets be real, we got married as older adults so at this late age we are pretty much "set in our ways". They say the first year of marriage is the most difficult because that's when you truly get to know each others idiosyncrasies. I've been married before and I would wholeheartedly agree that the first year is the hardest no matter how wonderful your spouse is (and not to brag but mine is absolutely wonderful). Although my husband has made me extremely happy, there are things about him that annoy the heck out of me and things about me that annoy the heck out of him. So during my devotionals the Lord spoke to me and reminded me that I CAN'T CHANGE HIM ONLY HE CAN CHANGE HIM. Basically the Holy Spirit reminded me that I need to take myself out of the business of trying to change things in my husband and bring it to God and my hubby needs to do the same thing with me. Well for women, especially strong Latin women, this is easier said than done. LOL Okay, so the next scripture I'm lead to is Proverbs 31:26a, "She opens her mouth with wisdom". Hmm, I've read Proverbs before and never really noticed this scripture. So it got me thinking, it doesn't say she opens her mouth with criticism, anger, sarcasm, or with demands but she opens her mouth with WISDOM. That was a good scripture for me because anxiety does not help my mouth or my attitude (LOL).
So bottom line:
control + fear = anxiety AND
prayer + trust + thanksgiving = peace
I share my life with you because I believe it will minister to you. If you are in an anxious place, a place where you are about to scream it means you are trying to do it on your own. Find yourself a quiet place and just start to pray. Put on some worship music and just start to praise. Seek God and let go and the weight will drop and then God will step in when you have finally let go off the wheel. Lets pray.
Father God, you are God but you are also my father. Daddy, I know that you know every desire of my heart, every struggle, ever pain and daddy I ask you to please take it all from me and do only what you can do. Daddy I know that there is nothing impossible for you so I leave all these things on your lap and receive from you the peace that surpasses all understanding. Your word tells me to cast all my cares upon you because you care for me so I can rest assured that since you care for me that you will take care of me and handle every struggle and give me the desires of my heart as I delight in you. I know that you will make my crooked paths straight and fill me up with the joy of the Lord which is my strength. Thank you for being my Lord and my Savior and taking care of me. I love you Lord.