Many people don't experience genuine love but I was fortunate to have had a husband that, though he made some major mistakes, he repented and returned to what was most important to him--his morning star. That's what he use to call me. I'm amazed because here I am planning my wedding to a man who loves me unconditionally. As much as Frank loved me, I have to admit that my fiancee's love is so different. He has this child like, pure love and I can't believe that I'm so fortunate to have such a special love again. You know someone loves you when they are willing to wait for you. They are willing to wait for the intimacy and willing to wait as you deal with your baggage that has caused you to build up some walls. My future husband has not only waited but every time I tried to push him away because of fear of being hurt again, he recognized what I was doing and told me that he was not going anywhere. He stuck it out because he knew from day one that I was the woman he had been praying for. From day one he has most definitely treated me as if he knew I was the one and clearly didn't waste any time in proposing to me.
I am very much into the biblical meaning of numbers and every combination of our special dates--our first date, our engagement, our wedding date--they all total either 7 which stands for completion or 8 which stands for new beginnings. It's also 7 years since my husband passed so again--completion of one era and onto a new beginning.
Five years ago when I was led of the Lord to start this new blog, the Lord spoke to my heart and told me that my latter would be better. He told me I would be starting my new beginning. Well, 5 years since I started this blog and I'm finally seeing my new beginnings. Two and a half years ago as I was trying to make a decision about someone the Lord spoke to my heart and said, "Daughter, did I not pursue you and die for you. Then any man who loves you will have to do the same and love you as I love the church". That was a powerful word and an eye opener. I held onto that word and it became my barometer. My fiance has shown to be such a man who pursued me and never gave up. He loves me unconditionally and he has sacrificed himself for our love. I cannot thank the Lord enough for bringing this wonderful man into my life and for helping me to release the past and move forward to my new beginning with my future husband.
Praise you my Lord Jesus.